Have you ever felt like you were just alive? There's breathe in your lungs, all of your motor skills are functioning normally, and there's even the slight occurance of human interaction every now and then. But, there's an emptiness or a void that settles in your mind every now and then. It's not often (I'm not talking depression grade empty), but it's that feeling that there's supposed to be more. Not necessarily missing...just more. Do you know what I'm talking about now?

Well, I should start by saying, "I LOVE MY LIFE!" I'm in love. I have an amazing family. I have the most wonderful friends that anyone could pray for. I'm one of those college graduates that was more than lucky to find a job (or should I say, to have a job find me) that's even remotely related to their degree. And I have a God that choses to bless me daily with life and all of my gifts and talents. I assure you, it's all wonderful. And yet, here I am talking to you (whoever you are) about voids and emptiness. It's not that I'm lacking in any shape or form. It's just that I feel like there should be more.

I'm one of those people that sits back and watches others accomplish great things, and then wonder why nothing great ever happens to me. Yes, I'll call that confession #1. I see people live overly organized and adventure-filled lives, and wonder how do they do it. Well, after months of contemplating, weeks of procrastinating and days of questioning, I decided that I would start my own organized adventure. [que appropriate music for introduction of the world's greatest gift] Cohesive RanDoMneSs was born!

This blog is for me to share more than just pieces of me with you, but more like chucks of my existance and the people/places/things that my existance effects. or is it affects? (Insert confession #dos: I'm not a very good speller.) Things like being engaged...then not being engaged & calling off a wedding...then deciding to be friends...then getting back to together...then being contractually engaged (again. sort of). Also things like having a mother who's gone through three years and three diagnoses of breast cancer...having a two year old that you'd willing give your life for, but in the same instance pay the next stranger you see to take him off your hands...why I missed 30% of Grey's Anatomy because I was trying to watch the Real Housewives of Atlanta, My First Place, and Keeping up with the Kardashians all at the same time (it was time for confession #3: I'm a sucker for reality TV. actually any kind of TV)...turning your mosh pit of a living room into the destination of your dreams on a budget of $14.63 (no, not really, but somewhere around there)...and any other RanDoMneSs that I can think of that will fit cohesively into this blog that I've created.

So, WELCOME!!! And ENJOY!!! And try to keep up during my attempt to make the randomness that makes up my life pleasantly cohesive : )